Monday, January 14, 2019
Hey bro... What can I tell ya? I miss you like you couldn't believe. Christmas will never be the same for me, never. You were a huge part of my life, we talked every day. No matter what happened throughout the day, we always had a minute to bitch at eachother lol. No one can take that from us. Your niece misses you too bro, she got a teddy bear yesterday and even named it after you :) Tracey isn't cooking because you aint around to eat. I'm going through the toughest time in my life right now, she's so strong for me, I wouldn't know what I would have done with out her. I'd probably would be up there with you lol. The funeral was tough to deal with, a lot of people love you my man, a lot. Mom came and saw you, she is taking this a lot better than I thought, but she misses you more than life itself. Dad - I dunno what to say bro, he's surviving, watch him close, just like you did when you were here. How do I tell you I miss you bro????????? I love you so much!!!!! Its supposed to get easier, its only getting harder. I wish I could just go back in time, to Christmas Eve, and be there with you. Maybe I could be talking to you instead of typing this. I dunno. Maybe... I love you to the moon and back Chris, so many things we could have still done together, we were like one. I wish you were still here :'( I Love You Shu Shu <3 R.I.P. My Brother Forever in my heart <3
